Analysis paralysis

Analysis paralysis

Should I, shouldn’t I

Come and go

Back and forth

Up and down

On and off

Hot and cold

Here and there

Nowhere and everywhere.

Third party situations

Emotional complications

Burdens on the soul

Noone has ever asked for

They all want to stay

Without any say

Muted all the way

Left out in the cold

Too coward and old

To put in the work.

They fear like fucking hell

The truth they never tell.

Friends and opinions

They have words to say

About what makes me happy

As if my life is public domain

Family, comments and gossip

More and more to add

As if I am a mad dog

Not bold or strong enough.

Thinking, overthinking

Waiting till bells ringing

Nothing I can hear

Heart does not yet feel

Perfection is never here.

Fears of consequences

Memories of pain

Playing in the loop

Forever in vein

It's a free addiction

No money involved

And no competition

Just like is the falling

So why should I stop?